so im relly actually quite bad at this whole blog thing..i wana be better at it..this is me trying...since the last time..we had our first doctor visit:) it was incredible!!we got to hear the babys heartbeat and see the baby as well..it was moving all around the doctor said it was "camera happy".i new this would be an emotional time for me but i didnt realize just how amazing it would be..i cried like a little girl..the realness of this little life inside of me was just incredible!! i didnt ever wana stop watching it or hearing its little heartbeat..soo matt recorded the heartbeat and i listen to it almost daily:) its little picture is hanging on our fridge and is a constant reminder of that special little "peanut" growing inside of me.today i had my second doctor visit..baisically just an intake telling me what i can and cant do..suggesting i cut out caffeine completely didnt go over to well with me..but i figure ill give it a try:) they were saposed to take blood but my veins are pretty bad..so we got to wait for the next time oh and of course i had to pee in a cup which i think is the mose disgusting thing ever! but i did it:)

im starting to feel better..or at least i think i am..somedays i feel like yay its over back to normal..then the next day ill be like uhh just kidding:) still pretty tired quite often though.and a bit on edge at times:)my husband bless his heart he handles me so well..we joke about my moodiness after the moods over which i think helps him a little like "at least she knows shes beeing insane!":)which after the moments past i realize..but even so he just lets me go till the moment passes:)im starting to have those cravings..where i will crave something and until i get it..i will think about it quite often..ive been craving an apple pie for a few weeks now..and everytime i dont take care of it..last night i confessed this craving to matt and he offered to stop and get me one..but i decided i waited this long...i can wait a bit longer..but now thinkin about it makes me want it really bad once again:) stil not doin to well with the cooking thingi havent tried it for a while..but last time i did it was pretty bad..and now everytime i think im gana i think about that last time and i chicken out..my poor husband..but hes very understanding and says he dont mind.i bought this little peice of majic the other day called a belly band..oh my lanta the most amazing thing that ever happend to my tummy!!! i beleive i wil wear this thing even wen im not pregnant!i love it so much!! for all those wondering..we are not gana find out the sex of the baby:) i wanted especialy the first one to be a surprise..and surprise it will be.

this week we are gana start taking pictures of my belly..i think ill post them on here for you all ot see(which you all isa very select few) soo you will be seeing the process .:)

i think thats all im gana write today..i wil try to do better on here..try is the key word:)

loveings from the mullets:)