North Carolina is so beautiful this time of the year...spring sure is springing:)i love having my windows open on days like todaybut around 3:00 i have to shut them all and turn the air on-or else my husband will complain a bit:)its been a while since i wrote on here and everytime i do write i say that im gana get better at it:)
a little over a week ago i went to pa to spend the week with my sister karen while her husband went to haiti..what a fun and special week-we had so many good laughs a few tears(over a very emotional tv show:)) and just allot of good times.aftera week of being in a diferect house with asher and not having my husband around i was so ready to come home..it was quite a trip. and i wrote about it on facebook but i wna put it on here so that i can always remember this special flight home:)
soo i made it home..let me tell you my story-its funny really..asher and i were on the plane in philly about to head home.it was 2:00pm.and i meen we were literally on the runway about to take off ..asher had just fallen into a deep sleep which i was grateful for cause i knew this meant he'd sleep the whole plane ride..suddenly the pilot announces.."our 2nd engine isnt running..we will be de-planeing."soo we all got off the plane..asher is now awake.in the airport theres a long line waiting to change there tickets..since i was holding my son and had no stroller or my sling(i put it in my suitcase cause i didnt think id use it.der!) i sat down and thought il just wait til the line goes down---lets just say it was moving VERY slowly..meen while asher poops..so i run to the bathroom to change him.i layed him down on his WHITE blanket and it was a big one..i had him all cleaned up and was about to put his pamper back on when dont u know..he started pooping again..in a panic i placed my hand under his bottom and cought the poop(didnt get any on the white blanket:))i grabbed some wipes and wiped my hand off. i look up at my dear son with an angry look and he gets this big smile on his face..which of course made me smile..i then proceeded to put his diaper and clothes back on..i go to wash my one hand while holding son in the other and dont you know, he throws up all over me...my responce was "REALLY SON!!" (not in a very friendly tone either) i look at my son who is once again smiling away.and once again i had to smile to. although what i really wanted to do was bawl my eyes out..who couldnt smile back at that..i get back to the enormous long line which hasnt moved since i entered the bathroom..so i sit back down(let me just say as i sat,my throwup and poop aroma filled the air)at that point a very kind lady closeto the front of the line offers to let me go in front of her while another lady who looked trust worthy offered to hold my son..(which at this point i was glad for considering my arms were very tired.although i kept a very close eye on her)i finaly got to the front,changed my ticket to 515.we went to our gate which was a pretty long distance from the restroom and all the shops/restaraunts etc(fail! cause as much as i was in the restroom our gate should have been located there) i got my excersize,running to the restroom for me,then again to change asher,then again to heat his bottle then again to get a drink and snack for me,then again to change asher again...you get it..i barely sat in those few hours.my plane was gana board in 10 minutes and i look at my son who has a mysterious spot on his shirt...so naturally i smell it and realize, that "spot" is poop! i run to a corner cause the bathroom was to far,at that point my plane started boarding,im panicing! i change ashers pamper,change his clothes ,am about to cry and i look at my son who of course is smiling again...at this point i realize he is really proud of himself for all the emptying out he has done in one day,which caused mom to panic which was very entertaining for him...all this made me laugh.bless hs heart..needless to say,i got on my plane,asher slept the entire way to charlotte but lets just say the minute i got off that plane he realized he was hungry n he threw a fit..it was quite a walk from my gate to baggage claim and he screamed..i meen really really screamed the entire way there..i tried to hold him with all my fingers showing so people could see that i really wasnt pinching him.i finally spotted my husband and with a smile on my face i handed him his son-dont u no imidiately he quits crying.my husband then points out "somthing stinks..is it you?" REALLY??YOU THINK??!! :) it was a good day-one for the books.and its soo good to be home!

that being said...on to new things...im writing about this next part..simply so i can rememeber this..my prayers,my feelings...
im sitting here at the desk and i have my arm resting on pile i meen what looks like a tiny mountain, of hospital bills...theyve been rolling in since we had asher..right when i thought i got the last one..i got apendisitis..and there coming in again...its been so overwhelming for me.and for matt...and today it is trying REALLY tryin to rob me of my joy and make me sob..(as i type tears are coming..hold em back ony hold em back) over the weekend ive heard 2 stories of friends of mine having miracluous moments of finances being taken care of...and today ive been crying out to God..please let it be our turn..i promised God this morning..that today im gana rest..so that he can work.and it seems as though the devil keeps shoving those bills in my face saying HOW ARE YOU GANA DO THIS??!!so ive had the most encouraging songs playing through out my house all day...and im clinging to every lyric of each song...
"when the waves have taken you under hold on just a little bit longer he knows that this is gana make you stronger."
"thank you for the cross and the life you gave.wonderful.powerful JESUS IS YOUR NAME hallelujah Jesus"
"And the arms that hold the universe Are holding you tonight. You can rest inside.
It's gonna be alright. And the voice that calmed the raging sea Is calling you His child .So be still and know He's in control. He will never let you go "
"i know your there,i know you hear me,i can find you anywhere"
"we all fall down. we all need saving once in a while. you are not alone.we all loose faith and lean on mercy. through our darkest night he said hed wait for us,just come to jesus"
..and many more.. and then i have my precious son...who this morning as i was praying and holding him i just asked God "your gana take care of this right??" i looked down at asher who was smiling so big at me..i got tears..i could see my fathers smile in that little boy..dont worry my child...ive got this.
so i sit here.focusing on how good my father is...how wonderful it is that i can cling to him..how peaceful of a rest i can have even when i feel as though i might be sinking in the middle of an oceon with no one around...cause my father can walk on the water...and with him i can to..THANK YOU LORD!
i am blesed..in so many ways.. so far God has always provided for us when we needed it..and i know he will continue to do so. i have wonderful friends.this thurs. is my birthday and tonight i have agirls night out and one of my dearest friends is paying for my evening.tomorow i have mops..which always is just what i need.wednesday i dont think im doing anything.thursday a bunch of ladies are goin to a friend of mines house for a lil bday party for me,friday another one of my best friends here is taking me out for lunch and were gana take our sons pictures...and somewhere along the ling my husband is taking me out..talk about being spoiled.im excited.
and thats all im gana write today...