my little boy..

tonight i had one of those moments..the kind of moment where you just sit back and look at your child and think "oh my word..hes really growing up..it just happens..i cant do nothing about it.."not that id want to ..i love that hes growing up..but everytime he does something new...it just shocks the socks off of me cause i just think hes still a baby...he cant do that yet! tonight he had a french fry in one hand a nd a peice of bread in the other..and he wsa feeding himself...and for some rason this just freaked me out...i kept telling matt who was talking to some other people.."honey are you seeing this huge stepping stone in our sons life right now?!" he who was sorta annoyed that i wasnt getting over it was like "yes dear i see."wow-my baby is growing up!!
i wish i could post pictures..but as of right now i cant find my camera cord so until then..no pictures.
Asher is almost craawling...hes not quite there so his crawl looks more like hes doing the worm...but boy that child gets around!he already is starting to get into stuff..guess that meens its time to put my nice decoorations away from the floor..
Hes all about his made up word "uh-ga"he says it all the time..and he changes the tone of his voice while sayin the same word so it sounds like his "story"is really interesting and hes really into telling it...its halarious..he loves his new word so much that the past few nights hes been waking up at 3 am and laying in his crib saying "uh-ga uh-ga uh-ga!!"he rally thinks hes talking to..tonight matt was saying his name real fast and loud and after matt would say "asherrr" asher would say "uh-gaaaa" it sounded so much like he was tryin to copy his daddy:)too cute.
oh my dear husband-theres just nothing,absolutely nothing like seeing the man your madly in love with ,father his son.the proud look he gets in his eye when we take our son to ball games.the way he carries him into church sunday mornings..they big smile he has when he comes home from work and sees him or the way as soon as asher comes into bed with us n the morning,matt rolls over and says"hey buddy"like hes been waiting for him...i just want to sit back and watch the two of them together..its an incredible thing to see a father loving on his son.and then to think of how God gave His only son to die for us!i cannot imagine loosing my son,much worse..giving him willingly.what an incredible God we serve!!
im reading the book called "choosing to see" by marybeth chapman.its all about her story and her trajic loss of her daughter,who was killed by a car running over her..the worse part is that her son was the one to drive over her..i have had my share of crying reading this book..hearing the mother talk about loosing her daughter and hearing how the son felt...it ripped my heart into peices...and made me so thankful and this morning when i so badly wanted to sleep in but my son did not..i layed tehre and thought..if i was the mom who lost her child i would look back in this moment and think"why didnt i just get up and play with him.."so thats what i did:)this book has definately put things into perspective for me..do not take what you have for granted.enjoy your season of life..whatever that may be,be selfless.and love,uncontrolably,with all youve got...LOVE