soo its been a while since ive written on my blog-but my life has just been soo busy and for the past couple weeks i have lacked motivation in a huge way!so we have news!!!were having a baby!!!! im 6 weeks along right now and my due date is decmeber 7 (which seems like forever off!).oh i cannot tell you the excitement wee have been feeling!theres a long God written story behind it too which is the greatest part:) as most of you know my husband is 7 and a half years older then me...on our honeymoon we began talkin about having kids and he so bluntly tells me "im ready whenever you are" my mouth dropped and i was like "well your gana be waiting at least 4 years!" we didnt discuss is much more after that until after we got home and were settled in it came up again..matt is a die hard softball fan-plays almost every weekend and absolutely loves it and hes super good at it too!soo he tells me "i dont want to be 50 and teaching my kids how to play ball" well we continued to discuss it and i finally said"well lets pray about it and we get a clear,a very clear sign from God,then well go for it" in my head i was so proud of my self cause me and my disbeleif said "Gods not gana give me a clear enough sign:)"well for the next couple weeks we prayed about it allot and i was feeling no diferent about it.end of november i went to Pa for a week without matt and i decided to ask my mom what she thought of the idea and in my head i new that mom was gana say "noo its too soon you should wait" soo i brought it up and much to my surprise she said"go for it!! i really think you should!" i was shocked!! so i before i went to be that night i prayed again "God im still waiting on that clear sign about this,i know you know whats best for us and i know you will reveal it to us.." the next night i prayed the same thing again and after i prayed i decided to do my bible study lesson that some church ladies were goin through(which i figured i wouldnt get done taht week cause it was sucha busy one..but i had time taht night!)so i began reading the chapter we were rady for in psalms ..and heres what i read(the words in caps locked is where God was just pounding me on!!)
psalms127:1-5
If the Lord doesnt build the house the bulders are working for nothing.If the Lord doesnt guard the city the guards are watching for nothing(2)it is no ude for you to get up early and stay up late working for a living.The Lord gives sleep to those He loves.(3)CHILDREN ARE A GIFT FROM THE LORD ,BABIES ARE A REWARD(4)CHILDREN WHO ARE BORN TO A YOUNG MAN ARE LIKE ARROWS IN THE HAND OF A WARRIOR.(5)HAPPY IS THE MAN WHO HAS HIS BAG FULL OF ARROWS.THEY WILL NOT BE DEFEATED WHEN THEY FIGHT THEIR ENEMIES AT THE CITY GATE.

i sat there with tears and a my mouth hangin wide open and immidiately started praying "God i hear you!I HEAR YOU LORD!!!and im willing!i give this to you trusting you to equipt me as a mother and trustin you to play out your will for my life as you have it planned!" so i called Matt and he was absolutely amazed as well..it was awesome-because taht fear i had of having children now was gone-i had absolute faith that this was what God wanted for us... so 2 weeks latr i finished out my pack of pills i was on and we started trying...of course at this point i was so excited..knowing that this was what God wanted i new if He called us to it He was gana provide in every area!
i guess a little part of me thought "well since this is what God wants,its gana happen right away" well it didnt go that way..my loveing heavenly Father knows me all to well and knows my lack of patience..soo He decided to test me on that first:)after the first month went by and i wasnt pregnant i was like "God!what??!!whats goin on here?" my impatientness was taking over here:)after oh maybe 6 weeks of me being like ..ookkkkkkk!!!!!!! i finally felt Him say.."remember when you gave this to me..remember when you said it was all in My hands??...remember when you had FAITH that i was gana take care of this how i planned it??..I STILL WILL!!!!!" so after that my prayer changed..from "God please give us this opportunity to have kids" to "Father-you know the decires of our hearts and i know that your timing will be perfect to Lord..we will wait..on your perfect timeing!"and of course i had to add in "but please let it be soon":) well 3 months later on april 1st (aprils fools..for those of you who know me..you know how much i loooovveeee april fools jokes..pull em every year:)" i found out im pregnantafter taking that first test and seeing two lines i midiately started cryin and screaming around my house THANK YOU GOD THANK YOU!!!!!!:).. wen my husband came home form work i wrote on my belly with a sharpie "WERE HAVING A BABY" and i showed him..and he laughed at me and said yeaaaa right.i was so angry,so i went and got the 2 tests i had taken and showed him and he says"can you fake these things??"haha well we sat there in shock thanking God over and over for His perfect timing!
a few days ago at one point i started panicing thinkin "babies cost money..how are we gana afford this?! "and right away i called out my disbelief and demanded it to beleive and minutes later i told Matt "you know whats soo awesome about this whole thing..i know without a doubt we are in Gods will right now and i know that when we are in His will HE WILL PROVIDE FOR US ,HE WILL TAKE CARE OF US!!"i love that prmise Hes given us..and i cling to it!!!!

soooo thats it..thats what Gods been doin in our lives and thats where were heading! my husband still hasnt grasped that its gana take a few years before our baby will even be able to pick up a ball and bat he keeps sayin things like last night he said "isnt it crazy how much the baby grows in the first 9 months...imagine if it would continue to grow like that after its born..imagine what it would be doing next year" i was like aww that would suck ..he/she would probably be gettin married!! and matt says "no i was thinkin he/she'd be playing softball":) anyways- i keep pictureing him in the delivery room and as soon as baby comes out matt taking the baby outside with a bat and ball :) haha
well this post is forever long..but i wanted to share that with anyone who wanted to hear it:)
pretty sure my posts on here will be all baby for a while-well baby and electra of course:)
goodbye for now