mmm this morning i stepped outside and i felt a touch of fall in the air-i do beleive it is about to grace us with its presence and i beleive i am the most excited about this !!!i love everything about fall-and i find it very hard to be sad when it is fall...and here in nc it seems fall is double the joy with all the trees and beautiful mountains..eekk my heart cant take the excitement!!

the past week or so have been pretty rough!!!ive been having a terrrible amount of pain in my back..so bad that at times i can hardly walk or stand up.its been misserable-from not being able to sleep to hardly being able to get in and out of my car-i feel like an old women-and i do not enjoy it at all!!im not a cryer over pain-but this pain has made me cry!finally yesterday i went to the chiropractor and he adjusted me etc..and i got home and it hurt even worse-i called my mother in law who said it wil probably getworse before it gets better-so iwaited it out-this morning i woke up and felt pretty good-until i went to my cleaning job(big mistake)about 15 minutes into it i about fell over- i stuck it out-finished my job and immidiately called my massage lady who is also a doolah and has many answers for me usualy-i told her about my pain and she said its either sciatic pressure or its a kidney infection but from how i described the pain its sciatic.:(so im goin to her tomorow to get a massage ,hoefully releive the pressure a bit and pin point what this awful pain is...

last week Matt FINALLY felt baby mullet kick-i feel it ALL the time-and i love it..but for some reason everytime matt puts his hand on my tummy baby mullet thinks hes playing hide and go seek-so he/she gets very still.:) but finaly last week matt felt it.:)it was prettyy cool.wenever i watch tv i get so distracted i usualy endup pausing (DVR:)) the tv so i can watch baby mullet do all his/her moves.my belly rumbles around and sticks out here then sticks out there-it is the most amusing thing.i just love it!yesterday i got the most wonderful picture--everytime i think about baby mullet entering our world i thik of something different-one day ill think about when he/she says her first word or when he/she smiles for the first time..other times i think about he/.she in the youth group..and so on and so on--but yesterday i thoguht of something i havent thought o fyet and it brought tears...i pictured that moment right after the babys born and they hand the baby to my husband...the picture i had was incredible...i know that matt is gana be the worlds best father-he loves kids..and although this sounds funny-but if uve seen him with our dog i just think that shows so much..he loves our litle puppy and he takes charge of her too..i cant wait to see him as a daddy cause i know he is gana be the proudest man on the earth:)i cant wwait to see it !!...so i hope that wen that baby is in its daddys arms,i grab a pen and paper and write down what i see,what i feel and years down the road when that baby is ever questioning her/his fathers love for it i can show them that peice of paper...:)


thats all i got-im gana go lay down and rest this weary back-love to all