hrei am-making another attempt to write on my blog-this time son is tucked in bed..although he will probably be up again soon for his next feeding..hes 3 months this week..i cant beleive how fast time has gone...and how much he is doing-at 5 weeks he gave us his first awake smile:) at 9 or 10 weeks he rolled over for the first time..hasnt done it since!:) at 11 weeks he gave his first giggle and just this week he started "talking" you know you say something then he does a little coo :)its so sweet..he still has not slept through the night-i am excited for that day although at the same time i dont mind too much getting up at night to feed him...as long as its not more then once or so ...he usually gets up aruond 3 am and everytime at some point during that feeding he looks up at me and just smiles..lately as he does it a a drip of milk falls down his cheek:) and at 3 am i cant help but smile back:)right now hes goin through a growth spurt ...which meens hes up allot more at night-which makes one verfy tired momma..but im hoping it ends soon!i cannot say how much i love being a momma..its crazy how much you can love a human being...overwhelming at times.
when asher was 2 months old i got apendicitis:(NOT cool!!i had been feeling pain since that morning(a wednesday) but thought it was from working out..as the day went on the pain got worse and that evening i told matt something isnt right...but still didnt think much of it..i went to bed at 11 that night in quite a bit of pain..had taken some ibuprfen..and slept for a few hours..asher got up at one and wen i woke up i could barely make it to his room...i went back to our bed woke matt up and ws in tears from the pain...we waited around a bit trying to decide what we were gana do...finaly matt called his broinlaw who used to be an emt and told him where i was feeling pain and what my level of pain was..he told us we need to go to the hospital so matts sister came at 2 am and picked asher up..matt got all his stuff packed as i sat there crying cause i was in too much pain to even feed him:(we got in to the hospital and they gave me pain meds which held me over till my surgery later that day..i ended up being in the hospital til friday evening..i hated being away form asher bt my dear sisinlaw took great care of him and brought him in to see me thursday evening..i couldnt hardly hold him cause i had just had surgery..but i got to kiss him a bit...my husband was home over the weekend so he took good care of me..as did my inlaws!!by monday i ws feeling pretty good..the recovery wasnt bad at all..but seriouslyl..2 surgerys in 2 months??REALLY!
homesickness has definately gotten worse for me since i had him...i feel it allot more..and i cry about it allot more...but its weird cause at the same time..i have never felt so fullfilled...i feel so fullfilled being a wife and a mother.asher and i are goin to pa next month for a week and i am extatic seein that my sisters and brothers have only seen asher once(wen we were up fora week right before christmas) he was only 3 weeks old...hes changed soo much since then..my mom and dad were down a few weeks ago but even since then hes changed..he smiles at anything right now..he "talks" and is so much more allert..im so excited to have my family see al this:)im sad to leave my hubby..but i know it wil be so good to go to pa for a bit...and im sure it wil feel allot diferent to come home now that we have a son..i think i wil probably be more ready theni normally am..simply because this is our home..i feel that now with having asher and raising him here this will seem more like home to me.

mu husband=one amazing father..my heart melts everytime i see him and my son together-i thought i loved my husband before we had a son but now my love for him feels so much deeper...he is such an incredible daddy-he loves gettin him to smile and will talk his baby talk to him until he gets one:)whenever he comes home from work asher and i go to the door to greet him and matt just gets this little sparkle in his eye wen he sees his little boy..melts my heart..its so special...i feel like our marriage has grown stronger just since we had him..the whole parenting thing kinda does that to youi think..and im sure as the years go on it will get harder stayin connected and all that..but "If God is for us who can be against us"
so yes we are LOVING this stage of life..my husband is quite excited about the next stage..when he can teach his little boy how to play ball and come home from work and take him out in the back yard and throw ball with him...yet still we are enjoying every stage..and excited to see what all Gods gana do in this amazing little mans life:)
well i think thats all im gana write for now ...ill leave you wiht an updated pictures of my baby
he loves his daddy

learning to sit in his bumbo seat

oh that smile..

after my appenidx was removed...i layed inbed allot..and he layed right there with me:)