its such a hot start off to the day here in north carolina..i no im a woos but i am so sick of the heat..this summer has been unbearingly hot for me,maybe cause im pregnant,maybe jsut cause im not used to living in the south yet but i cant remember a day where the tempatures were lower then the 90's..this weekend its saposed ot be in the 100's AND THATS NOTHING NEW!!!Fall is BY FAR my most favoritest season-the leaves,the fall air,the fun fall activities..its all so lovely.and fall in north carolina is the best-its no prettier anywhere else im sure!sooo i have decided to stay inside as much as possible until fall arrives:)however we are goin on family vacation with amtts family on saturday to orlando for a week..btu at least there we have about 5 pools all around us to jump into:)

so about 3 weeks ago i beleive it was i started feelin the baby"move" around in my tummy...just little flutters here and there...but sometimes im not sure if its the baby moving of my tummy growling:) most times i can tell the difference..but not always.ive been sooo wanting to be able to feel the baby move from the outside of my tummy so matt can feel it too.soo often times when it starts moving ill put my hand on my belly and see ifi can feel something...nothing.but this morning,right wen i woke up and was laying in bed i put my hand on my stomach,the baby was moving all around,and suddenly i felt a light kick:)just once and barely enough to recognize but since i could feel it inside i felt it on the outside too..it was awesome..and now i jsut wanna feel it again..but i have a feelig i wont for a while.

i just love letting my imagination go wild with this whole haveing my own child thing..last night i told matt "can you just imagine..having our own child,we can do whatever we want with it,if we want to take it away with us,we can.we can hoold it wenever we want..its all ours"i just love that thought...this child will look at us the way i look at my parents.the 2 people in my life who have always been right there-the 2 people who know me the best,the 2 people who have seen every step of growth i have taken in my life,the 2 people who i know will love me NO MATTER what i do..thats the 2 people we get to be now.i just love that thought.

if theres one thing i want to teach my kids from the very beginning is to be respectful to there elders.i pray to God this is something that i will always be consistent with.nothing frustrates me more then when i see a child disrespecting an adult,or anyone above them.yet i know its hard to always stay on ur kids about these things..i pray that God will give me patience to teach the child respect,the wisdom to know how to teach them and when to "Sit them down" :) and the love to do all these things out of love and not out of anger. "In Christ all things are possible" :)might wana remind me of this in a few years:)

well i must go.a very dear friend of mine is coming over this morning for coffee and muffins:)God bless!