third trimester already!!i cant hardly beleive it!i never realized how long people are actually pregnant until now that i am-it feels like im been prego for forever and i have forever to go!!!....im soo ready to feel normal again-have a decent sized body-have normal feet and ankls(there so chubby!!)to bend over easily:)and im ready to be able to walk without the prego sway :)not sayin im not enjoying this cause i am-but its gettin to the point where im like ok im ready now..i dont wana get any bigger... 11 weeks yet...WOW!
ive been sleeping so terribly the pat couple nights-last night i slept ok..but i have so much "lower body" pressure goin on that everytime i turn i have to do it slowly and carefully cause it hurts. my back pain kicked in again yesterday :( im babysitting for a friend from pa thats here for tbyl and im constantly picking him up etc so i think tahts why..time for another massage-which im so not against..just wish it came free:) im starting to feel tired again:(i could sleep till 12 everyday-course that could aslo be from not sleeping much at night..?who knows.
lately ive ben thinkin so much about what our baby will look like...will it be tiny or chubby,will it have my eyes or matts,what shape face is it gana have will it have lots of hair and what color wil it be...oh i cant wait to meet this child!!
baby mullets kicks get stronger every week..its crazy how it dont matter how many times he/she kicks its always so incredible for me..matt thinks i need to get over it now..but it just amazes me everytime.:)
i feel so bad for my husband..the more time goes on the more im just like this poor guy..suddenly his wife just changes..my body,every inch of it has changed,it would seem as though my personality has changed,since im tired often and i cant do as much therefore im unmotivated allot..i often wonder what he really thinks about all this..but oh when i mention it he about flips through the roof.he doesnt like when i ask him things like"am i still attractive to you" or "do u feel like ive changed allot" or anything like that...soo those questions usualy go un answered and i just assume hes ok:)bles his heart-sometimes i thknk pregnancy is probably jsut as hard for the men as it is for us women...ok not quite!
God has been so faithful to me..reminding me again and again of the strength he has placed in me,the "mothers heart"he placed in me and he has given me joy...a joy that cannot be touched...a joy that even on the hard days..remains.cause he lives in me.i love this song...and it is my prayers for today...
There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper

Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You)

For what do I have
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life
Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter
Of my head
Lifter of this head