we had a pretty rough week last week-asher had a bad cold and a cough,and then i got the same thing which to find out mine ws allergies:( matt has been coaching little league and last week of all weeks they had a tournament which meens he was gone 3 of the 4 nights that i was feeling miserable and the 4th night we had to clean a house(he went with me cause i was so miserable and it had to be done)friday morning i went to matts aunts house to go with her to a party,i walked in,asher was screaming,and i just broke down and cried..(for the 2nd time that morning) y sweet aunt,who is a lady i just adore,gave me a hug and prayed healing over asher and told me it was gana be ok..last week was a week i needed my mom.monday was the first of us both being sick and all day i just wanted to sleep but asher was real fussy(hes teething on top of that)matt came home for about a half hour and then left to go coach,everytime he left this week i think i got tears...my dear sweet parent in laws came over that evening to visit with me,im sure they have no idea what that menat/did for me!matts mom put asher to sleep for me and i just sat there for the first all day not worried about him and not holding him..it meant soo much to me that they stopped in while matt was gone.asher is now feeling much better..stilla a little stuffy and still not back to his normal sleeping through the night:( which i pray for every evening cause i have been loosing allot of sleep throughout the night which i make up for in the mornings but then i have no energy wen i do crawl out of bed at 10-11 am:(saturday i started gettins sinus headaches-i have never evr had such bad headaches...sunday i stayed home from church cause i had one and then another one later that morning.i wasw really worried that something was seriously worried till i googled sinus headaches and realized thats what it was...i did a ferw things that they recomended and havent had one since ..thank the Lord!
today im feeling alolto better..im stil very stuffed and i cough allot whenever i laugh or get a little worked up-but im pretty sure thats from all the nasty pollen(which our blue truck looks yellow..no lie!)last week felt like such a serious,emotional week which i dont do well with to much seriousness:)so i was excited to get this week started off knowing i had allot of stuff goin that would get me out of the house(which i need to do more of)..but this morning started off the same as every morning last week-i didnt fall asleep til sometime after 1 last night(no clue why) asher was up at 5 and again at 7 and from 7-8 didnt do much sleeping finaly at 8 i got up til 9 and we both went back to bed til 1030:)so agian-no energy,on top of that i got a call about a job i did,and she very nicely asked me to come and go over some things(another words,i didnt do a good enough job) i do not do well with this kind of stuff,i felt beyond terrible about it,i even cried to my mom cause i felt so awful,and i was soo hard on myself.i dont know why im like this,but any time i have any kind of conflict against me i take it soo hard.maybe i care what ppl think to much,i dont know but i just wanted to lay on the couch for the rest of the day and feel miserable..i talked ot my mom about it who told me i cant be so hard on myself..and i realized she was right,so i cleaned a part of my house:)which got interupted cause asher does not want to take long naps:(he sleeps half hourto 45 minutes-if im lucky an hour..normally he takes 2 hour naps:(PLUS hes not sleeping at night-LORD HELP ME!
wow ths post seems like alot of complaining...and i didnt meen for it to come out like that...i wanted to write about this so someday i can read back over it and be so thankful for health and good times with my family.so please dont be mistaken i still love being a momma as much as i ever did!we just had a rough week:)

a few sweet pics from the weekend...
asher and his cousin dakota-2 weeks apart.

those little feet..

watchin the masters with his daddy...

my poor baby boy is sick-hes had a cold for a while now and it wasnt to bad but friday night he started coughin a little,saturday we went to a ball tourny an hou and a half away and it was kinda windy all day-i tried to keep him wel covered but i dont think it did much for his cough-yesterday he was pretty much the same as satrday-not awful but def not well.then last night his cough seemed to get worse,i was up every hour with him...on top of all this i havent been feelin to well since friday either..ive had stomach aches-not consistent ,they come and go but come and go allot.its been better today though.asher has been pretty miserable today-i feel so sorry for him-hes been pretty much clinging to me all day-so my messy house has been put on hold until hes beter.his voice is soo soft cause i think he has a sore throat as well-wen he cries,its so quite that i barely hear him:(ive been praying over him all day-and im hoping that tomorow he feels much better...
and then 430 rolled around and at this point im about to cry cause its ust beena rough day for both of us,my husband runs in the house,grabs a bite to eat and is back out the dorr in about 15 minutes to go coach little league tonight..not perfect timing at all:(so after he left i sat there with asher and we both just cried a little bit...good medicine for me.i told my husband since ive been taking care of him alone the since last night,wen he comes home tonight he has to go out and buy me some wine coolers cause i deserve it...:)
i have a cleaning job tomorow so my sis in law has asher and she says shes up for it,so im praying hard that hes a bit better tomorow..
im gana go try and take a shower now...hopefully he sleeps long enough that i can:)

this little man...the sunshine of my life..
being a mommy is sucha huge blessing..i love staying at home with my baby-other then cleaning,laundrey and dishes i dont have that mucht o do during the day which meens i have time to just lay on the floor and talk to him,or sit out on our porch and watch him look around,or let him play in his bath tub every morning for a while,or rock him until he falls asleep...im so thankful how aware i am that these are the big moments in life..and Lord willing im gana have 3 or 4 more ,so this time,right now,i wont EVER get again...just me and my baby....and then wen the 2nd and 3rd one comes..it will be that way again,but my goal in life right now is to enjoy the moment,the right now.
parenting with my husband is the best.i was scared for a long time that once we become parents,everything between us would change,and not in a good way..it HAS changed,but in the best way possible..i dont think marriage has ever been better then it is right now...we love to have fun,and asher has jumped right on board with that.he doesnt keep us from havinga good time.were so sarcastic..for a while i didnt take his sarcasm to well..but wen i figured it out,and realized what fun we could have with it,its one of the things i love most about him:)everytime i see him talkin to uor son,llaughing with him,talkin baby talk with him.i light up..thres nothing sexier then seeing ur husband as a father.and i am eternally gratefull that the Lord has allowed us to be parents together.i know not all couples are able to have children and after seeing my sister go through a few years of thinkin they wouldnt be able to concieve(whcih ppraise the Lord ,after thsoe few years they now have 2 kids of tehre own and 1 addopted)i realized it is truely a blessing and an honore to be able to have children.
i love our evenings right now..matt comes home from work-hangs out with asher till dinner is ready.asher sits in his bouncer as matt and i eat and he either fusses to us or just sits there and watches:)-so perfectly content(most the time:))after dinner,we change it up but latelyi take a shower while matt gets asher ready for bed and give him his cereal bottle,then the 3 of us watch some tv while i try to get asher to sleep,we put him down between 730 and 830 and after that matt and i snuggle on the couch and watch our shows on tv..thats our time together-it works for us..we sit there and talk about our shows:)make each other laugh..we love that time..over the summer it dont happen as much cause matt has ballgames but we always come home from a game and then if the braves are on ,we watch that game yet too:)its so fun to see how much our marriage has grown over the past year and a half... i so beleive when people say "it keeps getting better"cuz so far it has:)
well thats all for me for today-this post has been pretty random-but thats how i roll:)